My Struggles

Everyday I struggle...should I eat this, should I eat that, one more bite, I love candy, I love cake, I love food....

On March 2, I started P90X with Paul and his friend Kenny. My alarm goes off every morning at 4:45am and I hit snooze and get up 5 minutes later, get dressed, argue with myself and with Paul about how ridiculous this is and head down to the gym (which on the way down to the gym, Kenny texts Paul every morning to let him know he's on the way(he lives at another apartment a few blocks away)...I wait every morning for a text from Kenny saying that he can't make it just so I can go back to bed-but Kenny is a dedicated man to his workouts!!) and wait for the gym to open at 5 so we can walk in and pop in our glorious video and get to work! I've been struggling with this, not only because it's messing up my sleep time, but because I don't feel like I'm seeing results in my weight. I've seen a lot of results with gaining muscle and I feel good overall. I finish the workout and feel really energized and ready to start my day. I feel like I have this constant wrestling match in the mirror with my body...I tug and pull, and say to myself, "this shouldn't be like this," or "I can't believe I look like this." Then on the other hand I can see the muscles in my legs are more defined than before and I can see a tiny bit of definition in my arms. Paul tells me not to get discouraged, that during the 2nd phase of the workout was when he really started to see results in his mid-section and in his weight. So, today we started the 2nd phase and I'm really hoping to see some results. I know things like this don't happen over night and that it took a long time for me to gain the weight so it will take me a long time lose it too. I'm just the type of person that gets discouraged quickly if I don't see results right away....

I have a few more months until bathing suit season so I'm hopeful that I will see a difference by then.
Here's to 2nd phase of P90X and my results!!!